Don't Believe The Hype!!!!
It was December 2005. I was 22. I had finals that very next week and then sh#@ hit the fan. Despite all of the good I had tried to do in the relationship, I still was being mistreated.
I mean for a while I thought I was a pretty, happy-go-lucky, nice girlfriend.
It all ended so quickly. Words were said and that was that. I was tired. And aparently he was tired of me, and had found a new girl to "play" with. At the time it hurt, but I was tired of being treated so badly. Tired of being lonely all the time and feeling like sh#@.
Most of the gory details are a bit fuzzy now. To feel like no other guy would ever want to date you again after a break up of almost 4 1/2 years with one guy, is not a good place to be in.
I was almost like a domestic violence victim, thinking for a while that it was somehow all my fault.
After a long-term relationship break up a girl can feel like their whole world has crumbled underneath them.
I was left with no confidence because of lies I had been fed. "You're so skinny, why are you so skinny? Is something wrong with you? You're just bony?", he once said to me.
I mean who says something like that to the one that they supposedly love. Or my favorite, "You're just too needy?" WTF?
How am I needy? Aren't you supposed to want to spend time with your girl?
All of these cruel comments I started taking to heart, I started questioning myself, "Is there really something wrong with me?"
I started believing for some reason that no other guy would be interested in me because of my weight. And maybe I had wanted to spend to much time with him, maybe I was a little needy.
All of these things messed with me for some months until a friend finally helped knock some sense into me.
Ladies, don't let a guy take away your self confidence. DON'T BELIEVE THE HYPE.
"If you can't learn to love 'em you should leave 'em"-Tupac
More on regaining yourself confidence next week....Stay tuned.